6.03.2007


Wow... somehow the "really" made a difference. Felt more personal. Like the sign was taking a particular interest in wishing ME a "really good day". I've never seen a sign so emphatically kind before. Thanks, sign. Thanks for that. I will have a really good day - just cause you said so.

5.15.2007



At 1:25am I woke up. I woke up with my house being shook hard, and there was a very loud noise... because three houses down and across the alley a house exploded. Weird.

I thought something had fallen... it was the only frame of reference I might have had. i walked around trying to figure it out, totally baffled. Awake, but confounded. I finally made my way to my back room and saw flames, huge, house-engulfing flames, out the window and down the alley just a few houses. I heard the sirens coming down the street as I was looking for my phone to call 911. A neighbor came and banged on my door wanting to make sure I was up if anything were to happen. The house down the street had totally exploded and was just lost to flames.

I went outside, with the rest of my neighborhood, and sat on a lawn across the street from the house, watching firefighters do their job. A Policeman came over and asked for my info, I spoke with some neighbors as we exchanged stories of the past half hour. He also told me which houses in front of us used to be crack houses. Good. Thanks. One person pointed down the street to an object in the road. It was the front door of the house, still stuck in its frame, that had been blown across the road. We were commenting on how glad we were the wind was blowing all smoke and ashes away from the neighborhood.

About 2:30am, I walked back across the street to home and went back to bed. No one had been hurt. The house was unocupied for quite some time. They suspected it was a gas leak.

I drove by the house today and obviously it's nothing. It was just so surreal to watch a house in my neighborhood go up in flames. I've always thought about what things I would try to take if threatened by a fire. I've made this plan for, like, ever. I never thought of a house just exploding, though.

Moral of this story - check all gas valves. I don't want to hear of anyone's house exploding.

5.13.2007

What it came to...


Oh man. This was sincerely the worst it had ever been... but I can't believe I let it get THIS FAR!!! After I mowed and mowed... and mowed at much the following pace - mow 2 ft, mower stops, unclog mower, mow 2 ft, mower stops, unclog mower, lather, rinse, repeat. Raise wheels, mow 5 feet, hear mower bogging down, pull back, mower regains strength, mow 5 feet, hear mower bogging down, pull back, begin again - I got the lawn completed to a reasonable, neighborly standard... but not completely before I could take this picture... just because, well, who would believe me. Probably most, actually, knowing how good I am at not worrying about it. "Eh, Whatever"

This particular patch was the largest of them all at about 2ft. 2 FT! There was a rabbit's nest in the middle. Squirrels were having trouble clearing the reeds and blades as they frolicked. I enjoyed watching this wildlife display. Made me laugh.

The reality is my lawn mower has been broken. Which is fine if it's winter. It is not winter any longer. A broken mower is no longer fine. I borrowed a friend's. They took it back.

So... the moral of this story... always fix a broken lawnmower because you never know how fast your grass will grow.

4.16.2007

Death and...


I'd rather choose death. But only today... and some of tomorrow... or maybe all of tomorrow... until midnight. After that there are 365 days, more or less, until I'm in this spot again.

I'm sitting here trying to finish my taxes... and by finish... I mean start.

I'm going back and forth between H&R Block and IRS' homepage trying to figure out which one will be a better choice when electronically filing my taxes... because these are the decisions I should be making today.

I've been sitting at Panera since 11am. It's 2:30 almost. I have counted receipts, added contributions, dispersed W-2's, pulled out my home mortgage folder... I have the tools. But I came in looking just as someone would imagine a creative, artsy - non-math, non-linear thinking person should look as they are preparing to embark on their nightmare while still awake. Replete with multiple folders, a ziploc bag of envelopes holding more envelopes with faded and highlighted receipts, a stack of loose printer paper that has everything from iTunes to amazon purchases itemized (which is seriously not a force to be reckoned with), and every tax document I could gather, I sat down at a small-ish table. I know others have spied me from across the room all day thinking, "now, there's a poor soul" Please let me take a moment to tell you it IS all organized... I keep this stuff together. I know exactly where everything is... but it does look to be a mess and it's not clean.

In the past this hasn't been such an issue. I've never liked doing taxes... but I've never been afraid of them. This year I have a bit more complicated situation on my hands. I'm self-employed in addition to being employed by two other employers - in two neighboring states, though. I bought a house. I have to depreciate all my depreciable assets such as piano, computer, and other business related componets. And I have a mess of receipts I've had to translate from German to English while using my currency converter to find out what the Eruo to Dollar ratio is right now.

Now, as you read this I'm sure many of you are thinking, "There are people out there to help individuals like you" - this I realize... however, I believe they will treat me much like my mom when bringing in my stack... late... I imagine a shaking of the head, a few tsk's and a lecture on the importance of being prepared... like I give my students... like I got in High School. I'm avoiding that... by bringing the mess of the American Economy upon myself. It seems like a decent trade off.

Some of the more clever of you are also noting the fact that I've been writing a blog entry about what I should be doing rather than actually doing what I should be doing... again, avoidance.

I'm very self-aware.

4.12.2007


One of the strangest signs I've ever seen. Not because it is weird. It's just... I really don't live in that world... but somebody does. A lot of people do... and this is as common as deer crossing and, well... I just can't relate.

3.27.2007

Pumpkins & Cattle





This is for everyone who has seen the pumpkin. I don't even have to qualify which pumpkin I am refering to... it is simply "the pumpkin"

This past Halloween one of the teens carved a pumpkin that said "Rachael and Jenn" and we put it on our front step. There were A LOT of tea lights in it. This was, as he said, so it would "glow brightly for all to see", or something like that. And there the pumpkin glowed. And then began to rot... and rot... and rot and snow fell on it... and I didn't want to touch it... and was going to wait until it froze to rid myself of it... then students thought it was funny... and began talking to it... and announcing "THE PUMPKIN" every time they got out of the car when they arrived... that I couldn't get rid of it... and it's still there... no longer rotten as much as... petrified. And will be, now, until nature has it's way with it and it becomes ashes to ashes... or something dramatic like that.

It has come in handy actually. Just yesterday I used a couple of its candles to throw at a beligerent squirrel that was digging up the bulbs I had planted the day before.

On another note, but holiday related and a focus on something this same pumpkin-carving teen said this past Christmas that had me laughing. I don't know why I haven't blogged about this yet, though I had promised to a while ago...

Anyway, I had the teens over early in December to help me put up my Christmas garland outside. Earlier in the day I was in my garage and SWORE I heard cows mooing... what? I definately went through the "am-I-crazy" mental check and landed on, "I am really hearing cows". I live right in the middle of a city. Not sky-scraper land, but busy streets, buisnesses, regular city siren noises, etc... and then among the regular din I heard... mooing. It was incredibly surreal. So that night the teens are over and I shh everyone and ask them what they hear... and of course it went silent at that moment. THEN! A loud chorus of cattle mooing rises up out of the cold night air! and everyone screamed... and dropped what they were doing to investigate. Two cars took off while a couple of us stayed behind (way too crowded in those cars) and they came back reporting that there was a cattle auction building down and across the street. A cattle auction.

So later on I'm outside putting more garland up and this pumpkin-carving teens comes outside and yells, "JENN! The Cattle are LOWING!"

Spring has arrived. It has been in the 70's and 80's for the past few days. Spring rains, thunderstorms, warm breezes you could drink as well as many sunny days. I love Spring. Flowers are starting to come out and I planted some new things on Sunday. Just wonderful.

Last week, last Tuesday, was a gorgeous day. I went to the playground at a nearby park on my lunch. I was finishing a knitting project and an Eastern Indian woman sat down next to me. Nothing unfamiliar. I work with a lot of Eastern Indian families. There is a large population of families from India in the quad cities. This woman did not speak much English at all so we just sat next to each other; she was watching me knit. After a few minutes she reached out her hands to my knitting and I handed it to her. She began finishing what I was working on and she was quick! I held the yarn for her, feeding it when it got too tight. I eventually took out another project and worked on that for a while. So we were two ladies knitting in the park. It was really enjoyable. I'm not uncomfortable with non-verbal communication. Anytime I travel, this is bound to happen - that I run into someone that can't speak English - so I've become acustomed to finding ways to interact with people without necessarily speaking with them. So had this woman. She could probably understand more than she could speak, but her vocabulary was not wide. It was really enjoyable, though. I'm not a "women's place is in the home" type of girl, nor am I a raging feminist, but I do appreciate these sort of things that seem to fall most often into the category of "women's work" and it was really quite nice to be two ladies sitting on a park bench knitting.

It got me way farther with my hat project too.

3.09.2007

Music Class

Every music class from 3 - 6 that I teach does the same routine straight away when they come in the room. It takes up the first 5 minutes of class, more or less. They put their attendance stickers on the name chart, get a pencil, a clipboard (they don't really have desks) and they writing/drawing paper. The paper has half blank space and have lined space. At the top is a place to write composer, title and performer. It's called "Art of Listening" and I do it so that the students will gain exposure to a large volume of music, composers and styles that they would never choose to listen to on their own (yet) nor would know how to find. Most of the students are surprised to find out what music they actually like. Some are favorites - Beethoven's 5th, Beethoven's 9th (Ode to Joy), William Tell Overature, Bach Toccata and Fugue in Dm (the "Halloween Organ Song") - most of the jazz of Ella and Duke are over their heads, but they're getting familiar. We do a brief talk on the composer/performer, style and piece and then we're on to the days work.

They're job is to either write a story or draw a picture that's appropriate to the style of the music (you don't want to hear a lovely pastoral suite with a picture of vampires running around... I have to give this direction or this is what you'd get every time from the 4th and 5th grade boys) Also, they can't cop out and just draw the instrument they're hearing. They need to try to see a story in the mood of the music.

Some students have written some amazing short pieces during this time. Some have drawn some very insightful pictures. Some just draw princesses. The exposure's important.

Yesterday we listened to Chopin's Etude 12, also titled "Revolutionary". A wonderful solo piano piece in a heavy minor with gorgeous cascades of scales rushing up and down through the octave's behind dramatic chord stuctures wide with range and tone. If you know music, it's a relatively familiar work. Very dramatic... Chopin was good at this. An Eturde is simply an exercise, like a skill drill, in some particular area of technique, so when you listen to Chopin's you think "if these were just his 'exercises'... I have played Chopin many times and it is always challenging, but sublime.

Yesterday's song, though, was interesting in what it evoked in the students. Across the board with my 5th graders, probably 90 - 95% of the students wrote or drew a situation where someone was stuck... walking up stairs that never ended, getting swallowed in a whirlpool that never stopped spinning them, falling down an endless hill, running from something without escape. I was fascinated by this. They music really does, because of the endless roll of scales, have a sense of continuum for sure, but I was so impressed that the student's "felt" it... really felt it deeply enough that what they thought to say through their work echoed this perfectly. It was really perceptive and contigous class-wide. And it was something I never heard in the piece and I was wondering what maybe Chopin was trying to say himself. Like I said, the piece was written as an exercise, but he never passed up an opportunity to say something emotionally.

Later on that day I was speaking with another student, Older, about 17, who I had just had do some research on a couple composers earier this week of pieces he's playing. He was surprised by some of the things he discovered and we discussed how every composer, whether writing personally or for a commission, always brings themselve into the piece. Every thing they experience informs their work and they speak to us through their music. It's like reading their autobiography.

What resulted in the class was a wonderful moment where these young people realized that these songs aren't just random pieces of musical history - without point, without connection. But that they speak to us and create moods and worlds. That these composers are still reaching through time to tell us stories from their present and their past and even what they saw in the future; that it's a conversation with voices that still speak with us today. In fact that they aren't voices of ghosts but those still living among us, relating to us, pulling us and pushing us, sharing space with us... daring us to tell stories of our own.

2.18.2007


Pulled my car into my driveway this evening and saw this. I guess the water dripped and froze off the front of my car, but never broke when I pulled away earlier in the day.

2.12.2007

...has become fact

Today, officially, The Police (it's a band if you're that young) will be going on tour this summer... and I am willing to go to any lengths to see this show... perhaps multiple times. I might lost any stable savings I have and I am entirely ok with this.

I love this band... and by "love" I mean, they have provided the most soundtrack music for my life than any other source... I have read books and dictionary's just to find out the inspiration and meanings of allusions and words used in their songs... I have rewound (because I owned the tapes first) "King of Pain" countless times just to hear the descending line of notes that follow "it's the same old thing as yesterday" that echo's the "It's my soul up there" melody... when I was 8 and taped it off the radio... seriously... I watched their videos on MTV after Synchronicity came out with wide eyes because they were the coolest thing on the planet. I LOVE this band... and they broke up before I was old enough to see them live.

But today I woke up in a new world. A world where a band called "The Police" exist... today... not in the past... and I just don't know what to do with myself. I, honestly (this is all so dramatic) feel like I'm living in a hazy dream.

It is such a good day.

2.08.2007

Rumor...

Well anyone that knows me know that this rumor might have resulted in one of the greatest days of my life... I'm leaving the door open for other candidates but, who are we kidding, it's probably not likely.

I heard this and spent a rather embarassing moment lying on the floor. I had to move to the lowest point in the room I was so overwhelmed.

Sunday's gonna be a great day. Don't miss the opening act.

1.08.2007

Reprieve

I was 14 when I was introduced to Ani DiFranco. I was a Freshman. She was a young, 19 year old independant artist from one city over to the West trying to make it. She was head-shaved like Sinead O'Connor in those days (1990). She was playing at Milestones, a jazz club downtown. And since we were all young aspiring artists at School of the Arts, making really randomly assorted mix tapes of XTC, and early REM, B52's and Indigo Girls (before people knew them) we were happy to support non mainstream musicians as often as we could. So Maika and I went. We paid $5 for the cover charge on a Wednesday evening and went in and found ourselves, 7 - 10 other people and Ani on a 6" raised platform stage backdropped by a brick wall with her guitar. She sung "Both Hands Now" and a few others from her first tape and recited some poetry and she was done about an hour and a half later. I was moved and loved her and didn't stop listening to that low-budget tape with her and her shaved-headed self on the front for all of High School.

I just got "Reprieve" and can't stop listening to it... again. I remember a lot of the music that I used to listen to in the dark with incense burning and 20 pages of journaling conquered in the early 90's had a lot of heavy, melodic bass line to it (Sting's early solo work and Michael Hedges particularly) and just so chill. I think that's why I'm connecting with this (now) CD (no more "tape") so much. It brings me back to a time I've been missing desperately in my life lately; a very creative time in school with freaks of creative people. People that were walking down the hall in costumes they were trying out for their student directed play, or tapping their way to the drinking fountain from dance class; with people that are now in movies and on broadway, and making incredible works of art... still... because they were, too, back then when we were in printmaking and photography. I really miss High School. I miss the life of creativity I lived in for 6 years (Middle School too).

Ani's got me thinking about it again. She's bringing me home to Western New York. It's almost more that I can handle sometimes. The midwest is difficult on days like this. Unfortunately, if I continue listening to Ani I can expect many more days like this.

12.25.2006


I just made it through airport security and am sitting in my terminal for a slightly delayed flight to LA via Atlanta. Slightly delayed is fantastic considering it's Christmas day. (Happy Christmas to you all btw) I'm in Moline which is fantastic to travel through. Esp on international flights because you can arrive and hour before your flight departs and you're good. I checked my one bag. (I feel I'm somewhat of a pro when it comes to packing now) and walked the hall to security checkpoint 1 and only 1 here. They did the routine check with your shoes off and my belt off and my jacket off and my scarf off and my pockets emptied and my 3.4 oz liquids claimed and made it through... with knitting needles.

I took up knitting during my time home for Thanksgiving and have enjoyed a new skill in my life. It might age me 50 years right off the bat but whatever. My aluminum, sharp, pointed knitting needles are permitted on an aircraft... and somehow, though I will enjoy my new hobby while I travel, I don't know that it makes me feel entirely safe in the friendly skies. I won't go into the list of things I've considered as possible harmful tactics using knitting needles because homeland security might censor my blog. It may just be that they assume all knitting-needle-toting travelers might be in their 80's and the air marshal could take them quite easily. Just perhaps.

We'll see what happen when Granny from Florida takes down an airline becausse she's threatened someone's Corotoid with a #9 gaged pink aluminun knitting needle.

12.18.2006

My House's Antithesis

These are pictures that were previously posted as the "Halloween House" pictures. As promised, I have pictures of their Christmas fiasco. Some people who were a part of my tastful and pleasant decorating endeavor went to see this house afterwards with me - Andrew and Staci, pictures coming and... and the cows story - we just stood in awe. We just don't understand. And the woman decorating was NOT in the Christmas Spirit. In fact, she seemed rather put out that we were speaking to her. She was busy festooning, however, and perhaps was just irked that we were distracting her from her inspired efforts.





Sadly you are unable to see it, but there is a Christmas tree nearly hidden by the telephone pole. Scooby-Doo is dressed in a santa hat riding a train around that tree.


A barrage of holiday inflatables adorns the top of the garage's roof.



The other houses on the street can only be jealous. What else can they do but wallow in their mild aura and mediocre electric bill.

12.07.2006

The prettiest little house in the WHOLE WIDE WORLD!!!

...this is what I dreamed of doing last Christmas... right up until I didn't have a house for Christmas. This year decorating was really great because of it. It was one surprise after another... "I have THIS?!" - "I forgot about that one!" My house is a dream! And every time I pull into my driveway I just sigh deeply and declare, "I have the prettiest house in all the world!"









11.28.2006

I was talking to someone tonight as I pulled into my driveway. I pulled into the spot my roommate usually parks in and she was in my spot (though this has never been contracted... it's just understood) And somehow we got thinking of territorial spaces in driveways and that maybe, perhaps, I should put up signs on metal posts that clarified the muddy areas of parking etiquette... it kind of went down a bunny trail after that and by the end of the conversation we had discussed some of the few parking signs available... "this spot reserved for employee of the month" - I decided I need to find one of those because I really ought to attach it to my garage... then everytime I come home... I am the employee of the month...

Incidentally, I am self-employed... so really... what is this saying? Do I really need this kind of validation?

11.22.2006


I guess I didn't realize there was such a specialized niche.

11.13.2006

Substitue Chronicles #0932


"And what is your name?" I asked the Kindergartner.

"My name used to be Samuel D. Adams... but I'm Superman."

And my question as I turned away was, "should I be more focused on the fact that he is named after a superhere... or a beer?"

11.06.2006

Why I blog

My whole reason for blogging started with the pictures below. A year ago this was going to be my very first post but I had to pack and move instead... that's for another post.

There are two houses on the same street in Moline, Illinois that are beyond anything I've ever seen. It begins around the beginning of October and doesn't stop until New Year's: Holiday Lawn Decor. The pictures are poor and you can't get the full effect, but it was worth posting what I do have, regardless. I hope it can give you an idea...

In my friend Dan's words, "they are trying to contact aliens!"

This house is the lesser of the two.


But this... this is the tour de force...

These pictures take you on a virtual tour from the front to the back. Unfortunatly no digital image can give the the full impact of viewing these wonders in person. But please, please try.

It begins in the front with the hedgerow of orange lights, smoke and electronic skeleton butler greeting you streetside. The yard is replete with cobwebs, various styrofoam grave stones, your choice of the typical ghoul and goblin and then various other creepy accoutrement.


Here we are rounding the corner to the side display.


From the side, the fiasco continues with the smoke and lights. My favorite item among this all is the 2-D Americana styled Uncle Sam cut-out. It is posted by the trellis... Apparently their July 4th decor hasn't really found its niche.



We've now made our way to the back of the property and the the roof decoration where, every year, a new inflatable finds it's way to the reaching heavenly realms of this hades. Here we have the surprised pumpkin and the every playful toppling pumpkin inflatables. Sadly you cannot see the veteren purple sprawling spider or the witches brewing in the cauldron. (too dark for the shot). You might also note the trio of emerging casper-like ghosts in the left background of one of the shots.



Yes, what good holiday fun.

Keep an eye open for the updated late-December edition of this neighborhood's holiday hijinx. Their displays of everything Hanukhak, Kwanza, and pagan and religious understandings of Christmas are something to behold and really get you into the air-filled spirit of fun.

'til then...